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justprompts: what drives you?
Jul. 13th, 2009 12:49 amSlayer juice. Now available in five new flavors including Buffyberry and FuFu Faith.
Ok, ok, seriously though.
Well, I suppose there's the whole obvious right and wrong, moral compass, stopping evil because it's the good thing to do part of things. I'd say that's a pretty important part of it. Not acting, I have learned, is just as bad as doing as the wrong thing. Can't just sit back and watch the Apocalypse happen, and think you're going to get away guilt free. Also, you and everyone you love would be dead. Kinda a downer.
But I guess more specifically, right now, I'd have to say my family, and my friends. Dawnie comes to mind immediately - she's the reason I kept going during some of my darkest times. She's how I got through Mom's death: knowing I had to be there for her, and be strong, and be a real adult. That's still important to me, being able to be there for her in any way she needs. Same with my friends. They've all proven time and time again that they'll be there when I need them, so I think by not following through on my Slayer duties, by slacking in any department, I'd be letting all of them down.
Sometimes, anger drives me, but I mean that in the best way possible. (Is there a best way to use anger? I think so. Just ignore anything Andrew starts spewing about the Dark Side of the Force or whatever). I guess more than anger, it's a sense of justice. I really enjoy striking down bad guys. Because, well, they asked for it. By being selfish, cruel, nasty, disgusting, etc etc. I have no sympathy for anyone who does a truly heinous act and feels no guilt about it. I've known demons who've risen above their cruel natures, and one of the bravest heroes I've known had to fight against the darkness inside him, and prevailed. It can be done - and so things that decide to use 'oh I've got demon in me' as an excuse piss me off. A lot.
Sometimes, and this is a secret, I'm driven by the desire to have this all end some day. Not to like, die: that's not what I mean. But as if, if I fight hard enough, and long enough, I can make the world safe enough to just take a breather. I sort of had hoped that time was now. Hrm. Judged that one totally wrong.
Ok, ok, seriously though.
Well, I suppose there's the whole obvious right and wrong, moral compass, stopping evil because it's the good thing to do part of things. I'd say that's a pretty important part of it. Not acting, I have learned, is just as bad as doing as the wrong thing. Can't just sit back and watch the Apocalypse happen, and think you're going to get away guilt free. Also, you and everyone you love would be dead. Kinda a downer.
But I guess more specifically, right now, I'd have to say my family, and my friends. Dawnie comes to mind immediately - she's the reason I kept going during some of my darkest times. She's how I got through Mom's death: knowing I had to be there for her, and be strong, and be a real adult. That's still important to me, being able to be there for her in any way she needs. Same with my friends. They've all proven time and time again that they'll be there when I need them, so I think by not following through on my Slayer duties, by slacking in any department, I'd be letting all of them down.
Sometimes, anger drives me, but I mean that in the best way possible. (Is there a best way to use anger? I think so. Just ignore anything Andrew starts spewing about the Dark Side of the Force or whatever). I guess more than anger, it's a sense of justice. I really enjoy striking down bad guys. Because, well, they asked for it. By being selfish, cruel, nasty, disgusting, etc etc. I have no sympathy for anyone who does a truly heinous act and feels no guilt about it. I've known demons who've risen above their cruel natures, and one of the bravest heroes I've known had to fight against the darkness inside him, and prevailed. It can be done - and so things that decide to use 'oh I've got demon in me' as an excuse piss me off. A lot.
Sometimes, and this is a secret, I'm driven by the desire to have this all end some day. Not to like, die: that's not what I mean. But as if, if I fight hard enough, and long enough, I can make the world safe enough to just take a breather. I sort of had hoped that time was now. Hrm. Judged that one totally wrong.
